in love with something that never existed
for flute, clarinet, soprano, violin, and percussion (2026)
c. 15 minutes
“in love with something that never existed” was written for the TAK LAB, and was premiered by TAK Ensemble in New York, NY on August 7, 2026.
Movements:
to think — [c. 4 minutes]
your face — [c. 8 minutes]
because i — [c. 3 minutes]
“i like to think that on the flower you gave me when we loved the far- departed mouth sweetly-saluted lingers…”
What I consider to be one of my largest issues as a person is my inability to not fall within a daydream. Constantly slipping away from reality, I regularly found myself not paying attention to my surroundings or what anyone was saying. I can just be very focused on the many ways I would’ve done things differently in the past or what could have been. This work mimics the process of slowly seeping into, and sometimes fighting, an emerging daydream through wispy, airy textures that emerge from non-existence.
This work uses excerpts of E.E. Cummings’ “Amores VI”, which is in the public domain.